Where are you now?
Plaza Singapura secret recipe cafe..

What are you doing now?
Sitting here overlooking the stage on the ground floor listening to Xiaxue's fren,Rozz,talking at the background.And yes,I think she is tall n beautiful

How are you feeling now?
Devoid of any emotions..everything seems very peaceful.No sadness,no anger,nothing!! I suspect I am living in denial again.

ANy program later?
Yes,I bought a tic to the sneak preview of New Moon in attempt to inject happiness to my day cos I have been looking forward to the movie

What are you thinking now?
Nothing much,Juz tot of work work work ba

Are you enjoying your singlehood?
I guess so,sometimes loneliness can be lovely too

Seeing anybody?
No,prefer to stay at where i am currently standing at for the time being.

Who is the last person you have talked to?
Dunno her name cos i am juz returning a missed call

Who did you last texted?
Luis cos met up with him for lunch

What were you doing before this entry?
Doing posting

What's your current state of mind?
Hopeful for the future yet lazy for the present..haha

Missed anybody?
No..my heart is juz doing the minimum now..beating to keep me alive

Angry with anybody?
No,If God can forgive my sins who am i to get angry with anybody?

Hate anybody?
No..Hate is not a natural feeling that a normal human should feel ya

Anything you wanna do now?
Going for a hoiday alone again?Heee..I kinda like being alone

Where would you want to go?
Aussie..hee dun ask me y..I juz like that place can?

Somehow from the speed that we are going apart,I really feel tat this is like the final goodbye.After these period of time,we will never be as close as before no matter wat happen.There are no sisterly close relationship we can get here ya.I will miss the time we spent baking under the sun,exploring everywhere we can think of,going for food hunt islandwide,those midnight talks,those morning jogs,those judo/TKD sessions,once in the blue moon drinking party,the wok up a feast n have a party sessions..etc
Between us there are too much memories shared,as much as i want to let go,the memories etched in my head.Goodbye my forbidden almost wonderful love..

Cheesy garlie bread
1 clove of garlie (minced till very fine)
A stab of butter (SCS salted butter is the best)
French loaf (cut into small small pieces,used delifrance for this recipe)
pinch of salt & pepper
Herbs(Parsley-chopped into very fine or u can use dried herb but result not so good)**optional**
A handful of Mozzarella cheese

1.Mixed the butter,garlie,salt,pepper,herbs together
2.Spread the butter mixture on the small pieces of french loaf
3.Toast for 5 mins in the toaster
4.Top the bread with mozzarella cheese and toast for till brown
5.Serve in a basket   =)

Veg soup
1 carrot (diced)
1 green onion(diced)
1 clove of garlie (minced)
1 stalk of celery(diced)
2 tomatoes (diced)
1 small can of tomato puree
Pinch of black pepper
salt n pepper to taste
10g butter
500ml of stock
Basil (chopped till very fine)


1.Melt the butter with low fire and add in the onion n garlie.Cook till onion is soft **low fire pls**
2.Stir fried the carrot,celery for abt 5 mins
3.Add in the tomatoes.Stir fried till the celery is a bit soft
4.Add the puree and the stock in
5.Turn the fire to the max,boil for abt 10 mins.Simmer n cook for another 1/2 or till carrot is soft
6.Add salt,pepper n black pepper to taste.
**For those who like to have a bit of spicy taste in the soup can add a bit of cayenne pepper**
The end result of the soup taste a bit like the in between of tomato soup n minestone  =)
Enjoy~~~bon appetit!!

Well, as much as people know how powerful google is,I am very very sure many did not know tat if u wanna keep a secret life,dun blog,dun go online!!! Did a search on my name after attempted to change my name in facebook,twitter but somehow or rather google got me in their system..Super cool lah,google even linked to my lj..heee..I love google..Beside the ability to search out my links,it has alwys provided me with much entertainment varies from cooking to video..Ya..u can google almost everything n u will get wat u want..At least this is how i get hold of many yummy recipes,travelling details,somebody's blog...etc lah
So google,thumb up and i love u!!!


P.s : I love my mum too!! She juz managed to make me eat another 2 tablespoons of rice by cooking my fav mushrooms with veg..You are 神,mummy!!!

They seems simple to do n i like her way of how she view a recipe + she dun like her desserts to be too sweet..Wat a perfect master to follow...woohoo..i shall follow u ,Christine cushing

http://www.christinecushing.com/

This is really kickass..

 3 hard boiled eggs (mashed)
5 crabmeat (Sliced them
2 tablespoons of mayo (prefer the japanese baby brand one)
2 tablespoons of butter
pinch of salt and pepper
pinch of black pepper

Mixed them together n tada~~~yummy crabmeat egg mayo with 5 mins..woohoo
Good to be the bread speading,salad topping or u can put it on a biscuit n becum a canape  =)

*Slept away half of the time
*Ate some kickass pizza from rocky(Sun)
*Make 3 eggs porridge for e super one(Sun)
*Intended n had packed for the great camping @ TMC
*Kanan chased out by the nurse,LL go home
*Msn with random ppl n sms with uncle J who told me I am a stupid gal =__=!!!
*Repeatedly listen to The calling - Where ever u will go
*Openly declared that I hate tat watever
*Googled 2 persons' blog add..I am such a genius ya
*Feel pity for them after readin their blogs..Y do ppl who truthfully sincerely searched for love would get hurt in the end? Ans: Search wrongly liao ba
*Ate mum's yummy cooking(Instant noodle)
*Decided no drinkin n no smoking ever again
*Decided to work my ass off..woohoo
*Changed bedsheets..best thing i have ever done in the past 24 hours!
*Sweep,mop and pack the house

Think that's abt all ba..I hope tat the rain could stop soon..If not mum would realise tat i have changed bedsheet within 1 week again..lolz

Was accompanying her last night,trust me that sleeping on the chair is kinda of a torture..Initially i tot of sleeping on the other bed in her room(2 bedded ward) who knows a pregnant woman admitted to her ward.Anyway congrats to her for giving birth to a very big n healthy baby.The baby is really big n cute loh..However the whole experience was relatively new to me.This is the first time i witness "live" on the process of when the pregnant woman waterbag burst till her contraction is enuff for her to give birth..That took abt 2 hours b4 she was sent to the delivery ward but it sorta woke up my maternal side..The process was rather scary lah but when I saw the woman after she gave birth she was filled wth a sense of satisfaction n there is a very strange type of glow on her face despite of the fact she is rather shag out by the delivery process..Amazing right? I think that is how a mother will feel n look like when they give birth to the new little life ba..Anyway the hubby is also very nice..He told me he was so proud of his wife for all the effort she put in for the natural birth..**Clap Clap**Very brave woman indeed
I wanna have a baby too..Any donor out there?hahaha

Ima 不知道要往哪里走。。Part of me juz wanna stay single,to enjoy the singlehood..the other part of me still care for her..but i know tat ultimately i juz wanna care for her from far as a friend.Totally tired of the super quarrels..strings n strings of them..like a cocoon..i can feel their pressence that's eating me up...Hate it..argh..
Juz received a sms from a tenant for scolding me problematic..haiz..I wish tat i have e strength to scold her back..wat the hell..if there isn't any more room left to be rented out to her,is it my fault? 神经病..I think she bo ho sey..haiz..watever lah..Today is juz not my day..Sale side also got problems..crazy...

Juz sold a 4 bedder during the weekends but i wasn't happy or maybe i should rephrase my sentence~my happiness didn't last..deal is closed and sealed but how come i am like still having such a lack somewhere in me?
I talked to God a lot recently but this didn't stop me from picking up the very bad habit of smoking again.Especially ytd night,in the middle of the night,I rushed downstairs to a nearby 7-11 to get a pack of the smelly thing to puff away..It doesn't make me happier either juz a bit of giddiness n numbness..
**SLAP SLAP MYSELF** Wake up ya,G u should be working now!!!

*fellowship with somebody that i tot i have lost but thanks God cos with Him nothing is impossible
*went Play den sabai after that cos the night is too long yet it wasn't long either..
*felt guilt devouring me yet i went..stupid? or is it my nature is never good?
*saw my fren msn tat her son started to walk yet i missed every single stage of his growth..i really wanted to be part of it but i know i will never cos they have treated me as an outsider..somebody evil...
*Thank God n want to know Him more now..she is back for a reason which i think is good..
*He is stil far away..so so different when he was drunk
*She is still stand here..I know she is waiting yet i can't go back cos i know I juz can't..Y do i always hurt those that i never wanted to hurt?
*Put up ads on tomolo classified..I know they will bring in lotsa money cos I trusted Him who provide..I know Orchid park will be sold soon n it will be by me cos God is with me
*God,i am now praying..please give me more strength,more wisdom,more guidance cos i really needed them..I know my life is now messy,choatic for my own stupid doing..i know You love me so pls give me them cos i really needed them..Christianity is not n easy route but i will never give up cos I don't want to be the one who You are holding on..I want to be the one who hold on to You too..God pls guide me to the path tat i will be the good n guai one..the one who is pleasing in your eyes 

I thought tat breaking up is the best choice for the both of us as too many things have happened and there are only so much tat i can contain.So i initiated it,be cool be chill be heartless and cold blooded.As much as I want to move on i found myself stuck at this same old position ,or we called this square one,where i juz broke off with allan.The same old fren,loneliness, came to visit me together with his group of other khakis namely lost,confused and F up life.
Have been drinking for like 2 days in e row,mum looked worried.Haiz..i am such a bad child of her to add on stress to her already very cham life.I stopped working and money diminished its real worth n meaning.I couldn't enjoy anymore and drinking dun helps either.Only to leave me with lotsa hangover.I have tots of going back to you yet i didn't cos i felt that I will do u more harm.
Ok.enuff of my emoing..time to get my ass working at least it will be better for my bank account ya

I am feeling extreme nervous and indecisive now..1 hour more to the gathering and somehow i feeling very stress..
If abt 11/2 yr ago ur bestie betrayed u and u have decided not to mix with anybody who know her,what would u do if u were me?
Abt 1 week ago,2 of her friends called me to invite me for a gathering.Many ppl are invited but i somehow feel very uncomfortable cos many are ex bestie n my common friends..What would u do if u were me? Go or not to go?
After so long,none has called and contacted me except for one of them..should i go? I feel aliened

As per requested i am now doing an updateof my recent activities.Btw I am on twitter now.Follow me at http://twitter.com/shgf

^Satursday
~Cut my hair @ bukit batok Protrim by francessca.My oh my..she is so good n i am so so happy with my new look now loh.
 
~went to Xsquad opening @ the cathay.Good stuff there for all those who love streetwear yeah..The clothes n items there are choiness with style so pls drop by if u r at The cathay.It's located at level 3.One of the very cool blue shop..
^Sunday
~Went judo in the morning and am now acheing everywhere..think i gotta go more often cos i am putting on weight again
~baked  @ trish's house.Poor trish's sis was sick..so ke lian ya..fever Tmax 38.2 if i am not wrong.Anyway back to the baking,we baked one of the most awesome bailey fudge cake and it's quite simple to make too..

  RECIPE FOR BAILEY FUDGE CAKE
           1.Cream   *250g butter +  *180g brown sugar  till light n fluffy
           2.Add   *4 eggs gradually 
           3.Add   *3/4 cup of bailey + 1/2 cup chocolate syrup + *250g of self raising flour + *30g mocha powder
           4.Pour into a well greased tin and baked for at least 1 hr in 170 degree celsis preheated oven 
           5.Check with a toothpick by poking it into the cake n if it come out clean den it's done.
           6.Melt *200g dark chocolate chip with 1 tablespoon of cream +100ml milk+ 50ml bailey
           7.Pour the chocolate glaze onto the cake.
Simple right? It taste very heavenly sinful too  =)

Last week had been great for me cos i think i enjoyed myself quite a lot minus away all my pking..Bought lenovo S10-2 and is now using it to update my lj..small n nice netbook ya..i heart it very much..
Selling my 4 mth old toshiba satellite M300 too...Pls email me if u r interested at gerlynchia@gmail.com.
The laptop will come with microsoft office and I seldom use it too..yes..i know i am pk lah

my oh my..have been really busy since last week..with tons of unfinished work left while i went to lala land each day i really wish that i have 48 hours per day or perhaps 72hrs sound like a better deal..
anyway I have been really hardworking..heee...have been working from 7am to 12 midnight everyday..n in between i might take a nap for a short while b4 i continue(come on rest is for a better performance me later mah)
Thank God that i have a nice PA who work real hard n an understanding partner who allow me to work wihout worrying that i got no time for her..I am so blessed right?
ok,back to work..

How can anybody miss this..after gst is only $22.30 for 2 if i am not wrong..quick!!! rush down to ion n join the crazy q..lolz

the process of being away from each other is really heartbreaking..however if we were together will any facts change? I really hate to quarrel..

i read through my lj from the first till the last and i realised quite a few things that i wasn't aware of previously...
*I used to thank God a lot
*I think i used to love allan a lot from the post i read
*I was a more positive n confident person
*I have really changed a lot from 2007 till nw
*I was much happier in the last relationship than i tot i was
.................etc and many more which i am too lazy to write them down
seriously the night is really devoured the rest of the "me" if i continue to stay awake

In the end,it has still come to an end..tiggered by the smallest thing yet the effect of it was still huge..I think i have no regrets cos i tried my very best this time round..And to come to an end seems to be the best choice for the time being..nobody knows the future..perhaps one day u might juz wake up and curse tat u have went to bb tat faithful night when u know me.
Take care my bff..thanks a lot for all the things u have done for me..God will bless u with abundant good things around you even when i am no longer around for u ya..